Today was a heavier day -and not because of my weight! lol
When something hurts and we grieve, the process heals in cycles. We come through a dark place, into the light, and feel great, only to find ourselves plummeting, yet again, into a spiral dive!
So much for getting off early! lol
Reality kicked in again. And kicked me in the guts-basically.
We resist the acceptance of something because the pain of it is just more than we think we can bear. We even argue that letting go of hope is admitting defeat and giving up.
In spite of ourselves, each day adds up to slow but steady resignation.
The thing with emotional roller-coasters, you just gotta ride 'em out sometimes.
I take the Word and proclaim it. That may or may not change my feelings right away-but it does go to work. It will bring change when I do it from my heart. It gives me strength for the moment in which I need it.
Yes, I'm gonna have to do it again. But each time, cycling through again- I draw closer to the healing of my broken heart. (Just writing that brought tears.)
Stopping for a good sob.
Moving Along
100 days is a long time just to talk about this stuff...tedious at best-especially if no one else joins in!
So, today, I also wanted to share a bit more about some of my hopes for this 100 days.
Here are some of the things I anticipate as part of my new reality. Whilst I haven't created a fixed structure for this time, I do have some mental milestones, and maybe sharing those here will secure them with even greater certainty.
At the conclusion of these 100 days, I expect:
- a significant weight loss.
- to be 1-2 sizes smaller
- to be a lot healthier
- to have much improved sleep quality
- to build a signature look wardrobe
- to have my own home and home office
- to be excelling in my new online business
- to have a stable routine for holistic well being
- to love my life again
- to know where/how I belong in the greater Body of Christ and be there!
- to have a regular $$ giving schedule
- to be developing fluency in French
- to be head over heels in love with my God.
The timeline for all these things is to be built into this 100 period.
So far, week one has been:
Physical focus:
Start a Daniel Fast and move back in with my daughter and family.Conclusion of Course. Conclusion of an old life.
Mental focus:
Take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ. Trust God's Word beyond my feelings.
Bring my pain to God in prayer for myself and others (and the election) and exchange it for His promise and His peace. Amen.
Looking Ahead
Now, that Week 1 is drawing to a close, how do I want to approach Week Two??
Asking myself that question led to making this table which simplifies the process. Physical focus:
Start a Daniel Fast and move back in with my daughter and family.Conclusion of Course. Conclusion of an old life.
Mental focus:
Take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ. Trust God's Word beyond my feelings.
Bring my pain to God in prayer for myself and others (and the election) and exchange it for His promise and His peace. Amen.
Looking Ahead
Now, that Week 1 is drawing to a close, how do I want to approach Week Two??
There is just one step between where I am and where I want to be: How I am going to get there!
That's where daily building my bridge comes in!
I do have a disclaimer...This journey is far more internal than external. Qualitative rather than purely quantative. But it can be much harder to measure qualitative specifically.
A question for you.
If you were thinking about where you'd like to be in 100 days, what are the types of things you would like to see come to pass??
Here is a link to a blank table for you to play with.
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