Well, its been a while and much of that has been to do with having such a weird and constantly in flux life.
Taking A Journey
However, today, I am here with a specific intention.
I am taking a journey over the next 100 days. Unlike so many of the journeys, about which I've blogged- here and elsewhere, this one is an inward journey.
I'm going to let the stories that are integral to this journey weave in and out a day at a time, rather than try and lay it all out at the beginning. And like so many inward journey stories, there will certainly be some shadows, highlights, joys and some sorrows.
But the hoped for outcome is the shedding of what was-that old man-and the dawning of something truly glorious, seen in me as a work of transformation and grace by the Lord.
A Partial Setting
Over the past 10 years, and specifically the last five, having come through menopause, my body doesn't feel like my body at all!
I have had issues with several irritating physical conditions and increased weight. Add to that, heart-ache, constant moving between houses and countries, general overwhelm and such broken sleep!
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| Some of My beautiful Family: Left to right, Kani, son in law, Matthew, my youngest myself and baby Pearl, far right, is Rachel, my second youngest, mum to Pearl and soon to be mum to a new baby boy Puru! Less than a week! |
Tired of being like this. Feeling old and ugly and continuing to do so.
Since being back, I have wanted to fast and pray ( as I have on several occasions the past 3-4yrs), but since arriving home, I feel I have spent far more time chasing my tail than anything else and food has been my main comfort.
Still I felt inspired a week or two ago, to do something for a 100 days. I jotted down my weight and took my measurements. Then, I wrote down my initial desired weight goal, and corresponding measurements. I am embarking on a life transforming spiritual quest, though, not simply a diet and it doesn't involve getting on scales daily or weekly, or even monthly, because what happens with weight will be incidental.
And it is all about getting back on track, from the inside out.
I will leave the back story here, for now.
Day 100- Sundown
Australia, Mother's Day, May 12, 2019
I moved back to stay with Rache and Kani and Pearl, this day-just for the next month or so. I don't know where to after that.
I launched into my 100 days adventure. It is starting as a basic Daniel Fast with a mind that is focused on seeking God for HIS insight on the issues troubling me.
Food wise: A lot of fruit and veggies. No bread, no rice, no pasta, no meat, altho I am still going to have egg and cheese at times. No coffee, but I do have a lemon ginger or tumeric tea.
After a celebratory Mother's Day lunch with some of my family, including cake and ice cream, I was still not hungry come sundown.
And Day 1 begins.
A Question
Have you ever just felt 'over yourself''?
Like it's now or never- something MUST change!
Please share! :) And journey with me.
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