I have spent the evening trying to get through some of the many boxes to unpack and sort in my new place. My goals were to get my clothes hung up and my bed made. That took three hours! Lol mainly because it involved decisions about other boxes and content along the way.
I did have doing this blog and two other things on my list, but now my bed is ready, I think I'll be doing the other two in the morning. I am pretty sure I will wake early, so that should be ok!
Thank Yous
In case, you weren't aware, when god answers prayers, He usually uses other people!
God has provided for me so powerfully through family, new friends, old friends, church family and I am just sooooo grateful.
Rachel (my daughter) and Kani-sharing their home and babies <3, and Larrie, my husband, for ongoing support.
Karen and Michelle from church, who loved to see I'm looked after for lunch on Sundays :).
Michelle especially for joyful willingness to help over a period of a week or more, to move my things!!!
Natalie at Spaghetti & Jazz for gig work, Connie for book/illustration work and Netty for the new job, and Carolyn (landlady)and Sonja, new roomy, for the warm welcome at my new place and to God for the fact that they are Christians!!!
God uses people. He wants to use us all as part of His provision and plan to demonstrate His goodness in the Earth. He tees things up perfectly through His praying and listening children. He is the incredible Master Orchestrator!
God uses people :) Generous and joyful people. I want to be just like these guys with their warmth and kindness! And this list is really only specific about the last week or so...it doesn't go into detail about the wonderful goodness I have experienced at God's hand, through His children, and even favour with those who are not yet, but love me anyway.
Just want to acknowledge them all and shout THANK YOU! <3
Dubious Consistency
Even though it may look like I have backed off commitment to some things-like the gym(!), and even being consistent here- truly, it is not that way in my heart. I just haven't been able to physically DO everything!
I may not have been at the gym (Shame, coz I'm paying for it), but I have been somewhat active, with moving and still looking for how I can implement a new plan for the new schedule. I think it will continue to include dumb-bells and Shellea's Fabulous 50s 5 and 10 minute workouts.
I haven't really focused on much of anything but getting fully moved and living each day in its own fullness. I still have a little bit more left at Rache's, but will have that across, over the next couple of days, however, the bulk of the next three days is to make some substantial progress with business goals that have gone unattended for pretty much two months, apart from some sporadic efforts to try and move forward.
The time is NOW here, to complete the actions that came with the clarity of direction I received weeks ago. I am looking forward to being able to wholeheartedly give myself to these things and create quality fruit. Something of which to be proud. The workshop is booked and the Joint Venture with Author friend, Deborah Bates one in Aug is also booked. The ads for that go live in the next day or so. But the supporting work to do excellent presentations and provide quality materials now has to get out of my head and into tangible formats.
Even as that gets underway, the second job starts on Thursday...which is way better than when it was going to start (tomorrow), giving me some very much needed breathing space for business and organising my space. I'm also leading worship Tues night and Sunday morning, and want time for my own worship time before that.
In other words, it's still FULL ON, but the light of a developing routine is in sight!
Hallelujah!
Fasting, fasting, fasting...
Week 7 just finished and week 8 commenced at sunset tonight. Now, I am up to 15 hrs fasting and a 9 hr eating window. I have been diligent with the hours I've kept up till now, but I will say, as someone who has suffered eating disorders and body image issues, the fasting can lead to situations that bring opportunities for old thinking to come in. Well, really, I guess 100 days of fasting anything could do that, and I can see it, too.
But with total fasting and specific times comes the issue of working with other peoples' rhythms and schedules, which can lead to the sense of feeling the need to guard against not having access to food- as in, a perceived potential lack. This can, in turn, lead to taking more trouble to ensure access, rather than just go with it. This bothered me today because I was out with other people, but if it happens just in my own day, I don't have that trouble.
I haven't eaten anything since about 4, and finished a decaf coffee before 5:30, so I can eat at 8:30 tomorrow. Usually, it's more likely to be 6:30 and 9:30. I feel like I'm not doing enough to deny myself in the eating window, but I don't berate myself about it, because I look at it rationally, and it seems a silly thing to think-an old eating disorder way to think. Working out and exercise, on the other hand, I DO want to do more about.
Part of me feels kind of 'over' fasting and I feel much more aware of what I'm not having than I was earlier on. I do think that comes from making a 'treat' available. It has typically bee a very minor treat, at that, but it's enough to cause me to have to think about the challenges it is giving rise to. This could be partly why I don't feel like I'm doing enough-coz more mental energy seems to be going on food than it was before. I will prayerfully consider this, as I think there is a freedom to be found in it. An important one.
Fact is: it's easier to go without altogether than to show control. This is the thought behind Anorexia and even AA, and other addictions. But we can't go without food- we must find balance. Healthy balance.
The focus for the next three weeks is just the 16:8 Intermittent Fasting. I'm not going to do the food combining, but I am going to be portion minded. There will continue to be no bread, pasta or rice, or any grains other than corn related foods- and not all of those either. Only my one treat may be in this range.
For the final two weeks-actually 16 days, I will reintroduce measured portions of these foods again.
I have no idea how much I weigh but I do feel smaller. I can feel my hip bones when I'm lying down again-finally! Still, it doesn't seem to be anything anyone else has noticed, so...
Other Progress
As for my other goals , to do my heart emotional matter, health and finances...I think I will leave those for another blog.. too much to say and it's late. Bedtime!
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